blood phobia

" Blood phobia is an intense fear of something that poses little or no actual danger. Seeing blood or only thinking about blood can result in the following symptoms:
breathlessness, dizziness, excessive sweating, nausea, dry mouth, feeling sick, shaking, heart palpitations, inability to think clearly, a fear of dying, becoming mad or losing control, a sensation of detachment from reality or a full blown anxiety attack. " (source: www.phobia-fear-release.com/blood-phobia.html)

 

sad.. i have to admit that i’m blood phobia sufferer.. i have the symptoms of dry mouth and a bit feeling sick when watching/reading the bloody part of movie/novel.. i thought i had overcome the fear of blood since secondary school but i felt unwell again when the time watching 1 litre of tears and felt even more bad when watching Hannibal Rising just now.. damn..

 

by the way, the symptoms i had just very trival compared to the time i was small.. i would get dizzy, dry mouth, and sweat for just a small wound.. i still can remember i was almost fainted once, tat time i felt down on the ground after swim and bleeding non-stop.. since that i started to fear of blood i think..

 

damn.. i must find a way to cure this phobia otherwise i only can watch art movie.. sweet..

永别了 我的nano

========以下悼念文仅献给不久前失踪的 pendrive nano 和系着的幸运草吊饰========

 

是我对不起你，我亲爱的 nano 还有你身上系着的幸运草吊饰.. 千错万错都是我的错，是我不该那么粗心， 竟然在我上战场 (考场才对..) 挨揍的当儿让你被不知哪一国的敌人抓去当战俘.. 天啊.. 你才刚从盟友那儿载誉归来不到一刻钟啊.. 就这样和我诀别了.. 真是悲哀啊.. 唉.. 希望你在别人的国度里继续为他人服务吧..

 

 

++++++++++++++++++++CASE UPDATED 28/04/07++++++++++++++++++++

 

MIA (Missing In Action) certified for the 1GB Pendrive nano lost in battlefield five days ago..

 

++++++++++++++++++++++++ CASE CLOSE +++++++++++++++++++++++

1 Litre no Namida

just watched classic tearjerker Jdrama – 1 Litre no Namida Special (特別篇‧追憶) which i can say it’s actually the summary of whole drama.. however, by watching those fragments of the drama, it still so touched and makes my tears almost streamed out.. by the way, the drama was make me shed tears few days ago when watching it..

 

the girl in the drama – Ikeuchi Aya, was a strong and optimistic person who fought her incurable disease so hard and insist to write her deepest thought on diary till the last day she could hold the pen.. the courage and determination of her to live are the things i lacking of.. if i were in her shoe, i would collapse at the beginning i think..

pc fair / encounter somone

went to pc fair yesterday afternoon with dai lou tan, lim, and sc.. actually planned to help dai lou tan to buy new comp at pc fair but end up with disappointment.. i was shocked how come only a few computer shops participate in the desktop computer hardware selling compared to previous pc fair.. although the number of booths there still many but most of them are juz selling accessories like mp3 & mp4 player, blank cd/dvd, printer, etc..  none of those big shops from lowyat plaza i have seen has participate to sell desktop hardware.. sad.. in the end we had to go to lowyat  shop for the things..

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juz meet da english tutor unexpectedly when i about to go back from lunch.. it’s so paiseh that i cant really recognize her and remember her name yet she still can called out my name.. it’s really glad that she still can remembered us maybe we were her “monkey” students she ever taught.. haha.. however, i’m still wondering y she said i become fat liao, fat on face somemore.. lol.. btw, she was pregnant adi, congratz for become mother soon.. hehe..

Happy Birthday to Mei Ling

today is da big day for our great classmate who is mei ling.. we celebrated her birthday at RedBox from 2-8pm and dine at 6 to 10 which juz opposite of my block.. da time at redbox was crazy and fun because of da terrible dice game we played.. da "ki xiao" panalties for the loser includes kiss someone, propose to one of da girl, eat cake (which become cake facial treatment later :D), and the worst is shoe attack (kiss and smell ur own shoe lol).. i have suffered all da panalties except propose to a girl.. haha.. lucky my shoes were not smelly, but that is da hard time for daniel, ah hock, and mei ling.. lol.. watching back da video clips taken at redbox really made me laugh like mad.. those videos are the evidence of the crazy & fun time we had and i hope still can laugh out loud if i watch them again in future.. haha..

haiz.. damn sleepy now.. i think better stop here and go to zz..

 

outside the window

sigh.. it’s a bit shame that i stayed here about a year already but never stand infront of my window or balcony more than 5 minutes to look at the scenery outside.. haiz.. it’s a waste for staying at 6th floor sia..

 

however, i did it just now before i write this entry.. errmm, actually things can see from here are just normal which can see them everywhere also, like cars, buildings, plants, and people, those are nothing special at all (i was thought that before this entry too).. but if u view with a relexed mind then u will find the scenery are not bad.. my mind was peaced by seeing the leaves dance in the wind and i can felt the wind oso..

 

it’s something interesting by look at the people downstair doing things but hard to hear them clearly.. business at Food Foundry was good today as usuall.. erm, i saw her again (the waitress i met on thuesday), she was quite busy with taking order and serving food to customers.. seems like she is work on afternoon shift.. hope to see her again tmr..haha..

 

ermm, i should spend  few min everyday just lean on my window, relex myself and enjoy the beautiful scenery outside..

Banzai!! Jdrama

there was quite long time i din watch any Jdrama since SPM till last year i think.. tat time korean drama was too hot mayb.. by the way, Jdrama once again become my favorite recently since i watched My Boss My Hero and Taiyou no Uta last year..

 

the main reason why i like to watch Jdrama is because they are short if compare to HK/Taiwanese/Korean drama, a complete Jdrama consists 10 or 11 episodes only.. this is easier for me to dl and won’t cost me too much time to "digest" them haha.. another factor attracted me is the music of the Jdrama especially their background music, some of them really nice to listen..

 

btw, i missed some nice Jdrama like "1 litre of tears" and "umizaru".. hope still got seeds on BT for me to dl them later..